The Shannah (Book of Mysteries – Day 3)

“Shannah” is the term for a “year” in the holy language…it means to repeat…or to change.

This double meaning is the challenge put in front of us each moment, each day, each week, each month, and each year.

Will this next time be like the last?  Will we repeat what we have done before?

God makes all things new so we have the opportunity to fall into the lines of habit and choose that the next time will be like the last time.  We are creature of habit and this is the worldly way to go.  All animals, for instance, operate in instincts that compel them to repeat the habits of their lives.  They are doomed to this pattern for their whole lives.  God has provided us with the truth that is we are not instinctual beings…we can choose to change the patterns by which we live.  In fact, that is the great calling of our relationships with Jesus.  To be born new, or to be born again, is to NOT repeat that patterns that trapped us in the sinful life that we have led to that point.

Learning is defined as the relatively permanent change in behavior as a result of experience.  This is a very technical and rather unglamorous definition, but it gets to the point.  Things happen to us, we are exposed to experiences such as reading, events in our lives, conversations, books we read, news we hear.  These have the capacity to change us, to compell us to question our assumptions and to consider changing our thoughts and minds about the world.

Instinct to Learn

In my courses on Developmental Psychology, I often state that humans have no more instincts save one.  That instinct is to learn. Right from the first instances of our lives, our nervous systems begin to gather information.  The spirit of our souls enter our flesh and we begin to learning process of entering into life.  We spend a lot of our time in formal aspects of education (school) but we spend a lot more time simply, and automatically, gathering information from our world.

In the same course of study we discuss schemas which can be thought of us our conceptions of ideas.  Expertise in any given area implies that the person’s scheme in that area is highly developed, adaptive, and effective.  So an expert in farming has a very complex and useful schema related to “farming”.

This only happens, however, because the farmer (or would be expert in anything) is actively learning and incorporating new information (assimilation) and modifying existing constructs (accommodation) which results in the development of a professional in any given field.

This person, however, must be in a mindset that allows existing schemas to be changed by new information.  This relates back to my essay about the cup that I just wrote.  We might consider the consumption of information, the exposure we may have to things in the world, as an attack to our foundations.  But, if this is the cup that has been put in front of us, and we hold true that the statements that Jesus said regarding that which defiles us (not the things that go into us, but that which proceeds out of us) then we must be open to the changing of our internal schemas and we assure that this day, week, month, year…will not be like the last.

We will have learned.

Keeping the Anchor

At the same time, we need an anchor.  There is an absolute truth and it may not be attainable by us in this life.  That truth is in the natural world (the creation) and in the word (Bible).

The natural world was crafted by God and just like the recognizable technique of a great artist is evident in their work, so is the evidence of God’s hand in creation.  The patterns, the links, the natural analogies…these have been purposeful with a complexity and wonder that is far beyond our comprehension.

The Bible is the inspired word of God crafted, particularly in modern times, to be accessible to all of us.  In it lies the complex definition of something that is not definable by our simple minds…the nature of God.  The complexities, the seeming contradictions, the culture- and time-specific rituals and cultural facts that do not lend themeselves easily to modern thinking, are all part of the definition of that which cannot be simply defined by words.

Our human nature (our threefold composition of mind, body, and soul) and then word (written on our hearts) is our anchor as we consume the world.

Jesus talked about that which we consume goes through us and out of us.  The internal processes of the body select that which is useful from our food and expel the waste.  This natural process goes unseen by us and we rely on our natural systems to define what is useful and what is not.  In the absence of diseases, our bodies can do this very well.

As we encounter the world, the cup that God has put before us, and we consume it…we are to let our natural bodies and the world of God written in us to shape what is useful and what is waste.  In order to do so we need to two things:

  • We need to nurture our bodies.  We need to be healthy (eating well, sleeping well, resting, relaxing, and exercising).  This is important because our souls must operate through out earthly bodies and as our bodies are modified by the presence of our eternal soul, so is our soul modified by the body it inhabits.
  • We need to fill ourselves with the Word through regular study and reflection on the Word.  We may not understand many of the things that are presented in the Bible, but we need to consume it and incorporate it into our being.

Sometimes the filtering out of that which is useful and that which is waste is automatic.  (Being careful that we don’t simply filter things out of habit!). However, sometimes, this is effortful and we need to reflect…to really “chew” on things for a while.

And sometimes, the answer will not come to us when we want it.  We won’t have the answer to a question, or to a mystery.  And it may not be in our cup to find the answer to that mystery and we must go on what we DO understand related to that question or circumstance.

The reliance on our minds (connection to the God’s Word) and bodies (the very carefully and artfully creation of God) our souls (our selves) can consume the cup put in front of us.

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Mark K.

The Cup

In my Bible reading today we learn of the cup that Jesus is to drink.  This is the cup that is filled with the anger of God about our sin.  Jesus’ fate is to drink this cup and suffer for us the eternal punishment that is associated with our sin.

The image of the cup is really interesting.  The vessel that holds our drink, so necessary for our lives.  We must drink, without it we cannot survive.  Yet it also represents the vessel that holds many other things.  God’s anger, our rewards (when our cup runners over!), and the cup of the last supper, maybe the Holy Grail.

It is our portion.  It is provided for us.  We do not pour our own cup.  It is given to us and we must accept it as the drink that has been put before us at the meal (life).  We may not like its contents but God has filled the cup.

I think it is also interesting that Jesus has also taught lessons regarding that which “defiles” us.  He states that what goes into us is not that which makes us evil, but what proceeds out of us.  He was, of course, referring to the challenge made to him for gathering grain on the Sabbath, but it really lends a lot of support to the notion that that which we consume can simply go through us and out.  But it is what we DO with that which we consume that makes the difference.

We might, for instance, come across someone attractive and be attracted.  It is not the consumption of beauty with our eyes that makes us evil but what we do with it.  We can simply have it come in and pass out of us.

This is really a lesson, as well, about accepting the cup that has been brought to us.  In fact, going along with the meal analogy, unless we take in the cup that has been filled for us, the host will not know to fill our cup again.  By doing the things that God has laid before us now, we open ourselves to the next thing that he has for us.  But we need to focus on the cup in front of us, maybe still filled with luke warm water…and we drink it, before the cup of wine comes later.

It is our actions in regard to the cup that is in front of us that is that which proceeds out of us and either glorifies God or defiles us.  It is our actions once we have taken in the contents of that cup.

I’m thinking to he analogy that Jesus uses to describe the impact of the word on different people that hear it.  The seeds cast out on the road.  Some will fall on stony ground, some will fall in thorns, some will be snatched away, and some will find good earth. Similar we have our approach to drinking the cup put before us.

I might have to think about this a bit, but there are ways we can approach the cup:

  • We can reject it and not drink of it and stay thirsty.
  • We can take small sips of the drink and “never” really finish it, thus never fulfill what God has put before us.
  • We can toss it aside and attempt to “fake” that we have drunk of it, guessing at what we would be like if we HAD drunk the cup.
  • We can drink and bring in the contents of the cup as it is served to us by God.

There is room here for a longer essay on cups!

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Mark K.

The I Am of All I Ams (Book of Mysteries – Day 2)

The name of God in Hebrew means “I am”

So, consider that when we refer to our state of being or to ourselves we say “I am”…we say, “I am happy” or “I am sad” or “I am Mark”

The passage today relates to this.  We put the name of God before all these references to ourselves.  God is first in the natural order of things, and this has evolved into our modern languages.

We flow from God, we exist because of all the things that he is.

Mission: Today learn the secret of living each moment from His life, doing from His doing, loving from His love, and being from His being.

(Note: I need to do THESE readings in the morning.  I’ll be more awake and get more out of it, and it sets the mission for the day.)

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Mark K.

Infinity in a Jar (Book of Mysteries – Day 1)

I’ve started to read and reflect upon the daily chapters of the book by Jonathan Cahn called “The Book of Mysteries”

I will do journal entries related to these readings and the application of these readings here.

The first one is called “Infinity in a Jar”

Only an open container can contain something that is bigger than itself…a river, for instance, can flow into an open jar and the jar can, over time, contain the entire river (over time).

The truth of the world is not only infinite, but it is challenging.  My ego wants the universe to be a certain way…likely with me in the middle of it.  But this perspective makes me a closed vessel.  This way I’m not always open to the truth, which is infinite, I select truth that is convenient and can be contained in me.  This is a very limited view of the universe and closes me to the infinite wisdom and beauty in it.

My current Bible (and other sources) readings are challenging my world view.  They sometimes seem unfair or impossible.  I am full of doubt.  Despite this, I am being exposed to truth and wisdom and I need to prepare myself to accommodate it.  This may mean, as is discussed by Piaget, that I need to tear down my existing schemes regarding the world and build them anew based on the new evidence, the new schemes that are being added to me.

The Mission:  Today, open your mind, your heart, and your life to that which you don’t yet know, that you might contain that which is greater than yourself.

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Mark K.

A Christian Country

This morning I read this article:

Jonathan Cahn’s Last Words to Obama and Charge to President Trump

I was drawn to this article by a book that was given to me at Faith this past Sunday called “The Book of Mysteries” by Jonathan Cahn.  Rabbi Cahn is a “Messianic Rabbi”, still Jewish, but believes that Jesus was the Messiah.

The article fires up the image of America as the “City on the Hill” that is to spread light around the world.  He laments about the Obama years as the bringers of darkness…in particular relation to two issues: Marriage and Abortion.

These are hot topics for Christians and to many others in the world.  Truthfully, my own thoughts on these issues are on the move…they are moving toward a more conservative viewpoint.  Though I feel strange about this, as for many years I have sided on the pro-equal marriage and abortion rights side of things, they seem to align to my thoughts about God more and more.

What I’m coming to realize is how powerful God really is.  I know to believers this is silly, but to me this is profound.  I have claimed to be a Christian for a long time, but yet I routinely deny the power of God by denying his commands for how I am to live my life.  I simply fail to see him as the powerful, univers-building being that he is.  Through this denial, I can act as I will and see no universal consequence.

While I do not believe that the purpose of our faithful lives on Earth is to be rewarded in the hear and now, there is a connection in the hear and now to what we do and what we get, we really do reap what we sow.  I believe that this happens in relationships, in finances, in moral behavior, and in every other aspect of life.  There is a balance to the universe that is built into all of its structures.  Opposing forces are constantly at play and our role is to battle for the “right” agains the “wrong” and there really are absolute “rights” and “wrongs”!

The article certainly continues to make the claim that America is God’s special country.  That somehow we have been selected as the example for the world.  In some ways, we are this.  This makes America great, but as any example, it is a great responsibility and others imitate us good and bad.  Look at the impact that great athletes who have fallen from grace have on children and young men who admire them!

Like it or not…we are example of the world.  The world looks to the thoughts, behaviors, actions, opinions, etc. of America as a guide.  We have to choose what kind of guide that is.

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Mark K.

Evening with Mara

I shared a great time with my daughter Mara tonight.  I am so proud of her.  She has such great energy and ambition for life.  She can get sidetracked easily, but that is something I can relate to.

She inspired the first poem out of me for quite some time.

We were talking about Adventure Therapy, and she is in the process of writing an article for a magazine about it (hopefully she will get it done!)

I wrote some lines called “Adventure Therapy”

Again, it flowed pretty easy…a bunch of edits the first time through and it is ready to go.  (At least to MY standards!)

I knew Mara was going to be home tonight so I made a deal with myself that I would not do any work.  I would make myself 100% accessible and available to her as she did her visit.  As it turns out, she is staying here for three days.  That will be cool.  We will have lots of time to connect outside of work.

I will need to spend time at work doing work though.  I still have to get my to do lists done!

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Today was filled with a lot of anxiety and pain (others’).

A student’s husband died of an overdose and she wants to talk about it in class.  This is causing some anxiety among the staff.  It is not that people can’t handle it, it is not that the staff does not have the boundaries or skills…but just like the first time I encountered real mental health issues in students, I did not expert, nor did I want, to deal with that in THIS job!

I had to do quite a bit of supporting today.

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I created a video about the ERT (Emergency Response Team) training we are supposed to do in class.  I sent it out to Kathy E. but I have not heard back.  I think it came out pretty well.

I did it in the format that I want to use for Psychobabble and found that it was not that difficult to pull together.  The story line came through as I was putting the slide show together and then I recorded the audio on the first take.

I think that when I get to do the Psychobabble stuff I will be able to do the voice overs without a script…though, it might be easier to use a script.  I can think through the stories and such as well.

I’ll do the slide show and then write the script.  It was fun to do and the results were pretty cool.  I think the Psychobabble thing is really going to work out well.

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Mark K.

EGO

Check out this quote from the devotional text of the Bible in a Year plan I’m on:

“Holy is the word that sets God apart and above our attempts to enlist him in our wish-fulfillment fantasies or our utopian schemes for making our mark in the world.”

WOW!

Talk about taking a moment to think about the motivations of my own goals.  Yes, I’m ambitious and I want to do things and leave my mark on the world, but the “wish-fulfillment fantasy” and “utopian schemes” really nail the reality of how much of my own ego is involved in my ambitions.  

The role of the Christian is to serve God, not to serve the self.  While motivations vary and I don’t think there is much necessarily wrong with the notion of being self-serving…it has to be second to the primary mission of us all…to serve our God.

We, ourselves, are holy to the extent to which we live to serve God.

Being in line with what God wants me to do means that God is on my side…who can be against me?  What could I possibly fear when the creator of the universe is on my side?  This is what is meant by being fearless…this is a degree of peace that we seek in our faith.

Jesus calls us to be ruthless in our effort to be holy (to live our lives in service to God).  This intensity is what he seeks…this is the intensity that will attract others.  When we see people who are very INTO what they are doing, we find it compelling and amazing.  We want to learn more, maybe even have a part of that wonderful energy that we have when we fully commit to something…when we are “ruthless” in our pursuit. 

We are to develop:

  • Humility
  • Tolerance
  • Love
  • Discipline 
  • Peace
  • Faithfulness

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One of the great challenges of my thinking is with the mechanisms of the universe that demand a blood sacrifice for the forgiveness of sin.  I can understand enduring sin and the fact we are born sinful.  Humans have been devolving in some ways over the generations due to sin.

What is it about the physical manifestations of good and evil in the world that usher in the need for sacrifice.  Are there patters of power and energy that emanate from “good” and “bad” acts?  Can this balance be offset by the instance of “sacrifice”?

I consider the energy that goes out when we hear of a personal sacrifice.  This giving of self, everything from simply doing a favor to giving one’s life, has a ripple effect in the world.  More so than simply doing good (which may have selfish motivations along with good ones.). Sacrifice, one would assume, entails that I am not that comfortable with the thing that I’m losing.

Our own trek to be holy involves an imense amount of personal sacrifice.  We are to give up our selfhood, our desires, our needs.  These things we do with joy and willingness and out of a pure desire to serve God.

There is something, however, mystical about blood.  Scientifically, it is the liquid tissue.  It is a transportation system that moves nutrients, oxygen, and waste all over the body.  Blood is a miracle fluid.  It is connected, in composition, to the she and the initial creation.  To spill blood (as in murder) is to defy God, to spill blood in sacrifice is the ultimate glory to God.  It truly is the leaking away of our life.

In the ancient world, blood sacrifices pervade the Old Testament.  This is so strange to our modern ears.  But in the day, blood was mysterious.  It is also connected to the creation so the use of it in sacrifice recollects the connection we have to the initial creation.

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Just read that we are the “salt of the earth”…we are to have “salt” in us.  Consider this in light of the fact that salt intensifies the eating experience.  It causes us to salivate more thus aiding in the breakdown of the chemical make up of our food and allowing our tastebuds to process more information.  We are to be the “salt in the oats” that lead others to be thirsty.  May they look at us and be thirsty for what we have!  

We will bring others to Christ not because we have convinced them of the need they have for Christ, but because we will be the salt that causes them to thirst for him!  Like moths attracted to a flame, we are the flame that attracts others to Christ.  We have to burn, we have to give light.  And by giving light we bring attention to the shadow (for without light there is no shadow and all is in darkness.)

Mark K.

Using the WordPress App

So here I am using the WordPress App to do a post into my Blog.

This is pretty neat.  I think I can simply take pictures with my iPad as well.

…well I tried to post a picture and it didn’t work.  🙁

I guess I will have to keep trying.  This is pretty cool though.


Well, that effort for a picture worked.  It might be that they can’t be too big.  Here is the cover of my second book of poetry, Poems 2, with the image on the cover created by Stephen Larochelle.

I can put something in a block quote like this!

I can make lists!

  • First
  • Second
  • Third

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Second Post Ever

So, just to see how it might look I want to do another post right after the “First Post Ever”, hence the title.

I’m also attempting to use Blogo, an app for my iPhone and iPad that will allow me to post to this blog.  It does not seem to be working because of an Error 412.

Had I known…

🙂

First Post Ever

So here is my first blog post.

This blog is meant to serve as a Journal, of sorts, for me.  Here I will record my thoughts, goals, reflection, etc.  More of a record for myself than for other publishing purposes.

Mark K